Did I scare you? 'Cause I think I scared myself. Ahhhhh the topic of babies can bring about a vast array of emotions, right? At least for me it does, and afterall, this blog is about ME. Just kidding, but not really. Anywhoooo, I was at Publix the other night gettin' some dindin for The Man and me when I stumbled upon the magazine aisle. (Side note- I actually did not go down that aisle on accident. I go to the magazine aisle, find a food magazine, flip through and find a recipe I like, take a pic wit (yes I said 'wit') my camera phone, and that's usually dinner for the night. Cheating?? Nah. But I do feel like a total shadeball...) I DIGRESS. So, as I'm scanning my food mags, something catches my eye. No, not "How to Please Your Man in 101 Ways" nor "What He Really Thinks About You Naked", but....
...Yup. You see it?? It's on the right, located on Miley's upper arm, just above the bicep: Babies at 20? 30?40? It got me. It suckered me in to buy the whole magazine. It's one of the biggest questions I have about life after the wedding. When is the best time/age to have kids!?!? Anybody out there!? I'm not gonna lie...I don't know when I want to have kids. That statement in and of itself is pretty clear that I shouldn't have any rugrats anytime soon, ha! But really, my Facebook is literally swarmed and flooded with babies, pregnancy announcements, baby bumps, baby showers, baby updates, and so forth. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE babies and more importantly, I LOVE my friends (real and facebook friends) that are glowing and so very happy during this time of their lives, and I LOVE being able to share this journey with them (real-life and in cyber space). So this is nothing against them; it just means that I self-reflect on "when will it be me?". I would be lying if I said I never got jealous, but I'd also be lying if I said I didn't sigh with relief that it is NOT me.
What it boils down to is that I'm not ready. WE're not ready. Both Jimi and I have our own personal goals, such as expanded our career options, traveling, and....ok, I'll cut to the chase: BEING SELFISH. Sorry that I'm not sorry. No, but really, it's just time for us to be us and get all the kinks worked out, such as fixing up our first home, getting our savings up, the possibility of going back to school, and enjoying our time just the two of us.
That said, I will continue to use the BEST form of birth control: TEACHING SCHOOL!
But who knows...Afterall, this could change tomorrow after I log in Facebook and get jealous by all those cute babes and pregnant mamas. :)
When do YOU think it's a good time to have babies?
5 comments:
Sarah, just found your blog -- so cute!
Love your blog! I am going to follow...I have one too... medicineandmarriage.blogspot.com...send me your email and I will invite you to follow mine!
I love this post, totally what I've been thinking too...babies ALL over FB! Creeps me out! And scary, and jealous (minimally, but sometimes) and glad its not me yet!
Miss you, glad to hear you all are doing well!!
xoxo
Hmmm...I agree with the woman who posted on your FB wall. There's never a right time. But then again, there's never a wrong time, like she said. We didn't plan to have Anna. I had these same feelings. I was barely 24 when I found out I was pregnant. And still subbing. I have to admit it's tough to give up your "self". I have to constantly remind myself that this is exactly what I want life to be like. And it makes me a better person (still selfish, right?!) because it's a total giving of self. I think life is all about love, and having Anna has made our house erupt with love. And that is wonderful. Everyday living in the family we've created is wonderful. I have a blog too and just yesterday wrote something about this...kelseywitte.blogspot.com. So there are my 2 cents :) So glad you shared this Sarah! Hope to see you sometime soon in Nashville! Love, Kelsey
Thank you all so much for your comments! Jocelyn-I'm gonna be following you and Nick soon! :) Christen- can't wait to read yours!!! I pass by a sign that says "Dr. Fleming" on it, and I think of you :) Kelsey- Your little fam is too cute for words. I can see and hear all the time that the love of a having a child is like none other, so I know it will be wonderful when it happens. It's great to hear from the "pros" like yourself on this issue. I know everyone's different too, and for some, having babies young works perfectly, and having babies at 40 is great for some too...no matter what happens, I can't wait to see where God leads us in this decision and journey 'cause ultimately, it's not up to me, is it!? :) I'll be following you, too...haha! Hope you, Paul and Anna are doing so great!
Well for starters my husband is a baby. He will be 25 this June! Ok, I'm still a baby too. I'm selfish and needy, and when I can give that up I think ill be ready. But I heard having a baby makes you stop being selfish. Another factor for mitchell and I are our babies lainey and kramer. Wow, they are a lot of work, but they are so worth it! But I must be honest, when I'm shopping at Target I always end up in the baby aisles. I pick out clothes and what strollers I like. Oh and you better believe I have baby names picked out. The sad thing is Mitchell doesn't love my names. He thinks that I'm getting to creative with the names. I reassured him that many girls in the Atlanta area have the name Orangejello. I have come across this name in my teaching career. That's another issue with babies, I come across names I love and then the name is ruined by a student. If I wait a few years to have children, then the only name left is Orangejello. Needless to say there are pros and cons to this question on babies... So in the end I'm going with I don't know!
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